I feel more vulnerable sharing this post with you than any other post I've shared in the past. I've been wanting to do it for a few months now, but I've been nervous and scared about what you all might think. You may think I'm crazy (sometimes I think I'm crazy). You may pity me. You … Continue reading Another Side of Infertility
Infertility
A Break from A Break
So it's day 7 of my fertility break and I've already changed the plan. I actually changed the plan on day 2 and am just now getting around to blogging about it. I'm a Type A freak and basically had an 8 pronged plan for my fertility break and was telling my co-workers (who are also my friends!) about it when … Continue reading A Break from A Break
New Year, New Plan
I can't believe my hysteroscopy was only 2 weeks ago. It feels like so long ago. Does that mean time seems to be moving slowly or really fast? 2 weeks ago we were still planning on doing IVF. 2 weeks ago I had a hysteroscopy to make sure we weren't missing anything before moving on to IVF. I didn't … Continue reading New Year, New Plan
Thursday Thoughts
This one is going to be a little long and a little random because there is A LOT on my mind. First, I'd like to thank everyone who has reached out to us in some way to let us know they're thinking about us or praying for us or just wondering how we're doing. I've gotten text … Continue reading Thursday Thoughts
The End of The Road
I can't believe we're waiting on our 5th miscarriage. I can't believe I've been pregnant 4 times in the last year. I can't believe I've been pregnant 5 times and we still don't have a child. I can't believe I've lost 5 pregnancies. 5 babies that should have been ours to love and snuggle and … Continue reading The End of The Road
#5
24OCT16: I don't have any pregnancy symptoms but something has been telling me to take a pregnancy test for a few days. It's been easy to resist because I've thought even if I am pregnant I don't want to know yet. I want to wait as long as possible to find out so I can cut … Continue reading #5
When You’re Waiting on a Miscarriage
I've been waiting to have a miscarriage since the moment I found out I was pregnant. I'll be waiting to have a miscarriage from the moment I find out I'm pregnant in all of my future pregnancies too. Every time I go to the bathroom I check for blood. Every time I draw labs I … Continue reading When You’re Waiting on a Miscarriage
Thoughts of Infertility
Infertility brings about many unwelcome thoughts and feelings. Some are self deprecating, some are hopeless, and some are just nasty and mean. Infertility itself screws with one's emotions, but add in all of the hormones we put into our bodies and you're in for one heck of a ride. Every time I feel any of these feelings I … Continue reading Thoughts of Infertility
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